Sunday, July 27, 2008

Milestone Monday and The Force!

What's my lil' E up to these days? E is 10 months old and she has grown so much over the past months. She has been practicing many new skills lately. Here are some of the milestones she has reached at 10 months of age.
• Reaches for toys
• Drops objects and then looks for them
• Becomes interested in grabbing the spoon during feedings
• Picks up tiny objects
• Understands the concept of object permanence
• Gets upset if toy is removed
• Transfers object from hand to hand
• Stands holding onto someone
• Pulls to standing
• Claps hands
• Waves bye-bye
• Bangs two objects together
• Crawls well
• "Cruises" furniture
• Pulls off hat and socks

and in crazy mommy news...

Also, E has felt warm a few times over the weekend and again this morning. I am a nervous wreck because we are leaving for vacay on Saturday and I don't want her to be sick while we are away. However, I can't seem to find a good thermometer. Taking her rectal temp is nearly impossible. Plus, our thermometer gives out crazy readings sometimes. MY body temperature can be= a bit below normal like 96.6- so I am not a good benchmark. She had a horrible sleep last night and was tossing and turning and practically throwing herself all over the bed. She has also been tugging her ears and rubbing her nose (or maybe her upper gums) a lot. I don't know if it is still the Coxsackie or if it is some major teething. The doctor checked her ears last Wednesday and they were clear.


Whenever I think she isn't feeling well I go into high stress, high anxiety mode. I know exactly what it means to go into fight or flight mode because I feel it all the time. I know I need to relax but that isn't as easy as it sounds. I have a tendency to lets thoughts control me. I get nervous and anxious and start to worry for nothing. I start worrying it is another UTI and we will be back in the hospital- or that she sill have permanent damage because I didn't catch the UTI in time. I try to dismiss these thoughts but they creep back in my head.


If that wasn't enough, I also have phone anxiety. For most people calling the doctor is no big deal. However, for me it IS a big deal because I make it a big deal. When I have to call I have a panic attack. The best way I can describe it is that I feel like I want to burst into tears and I have and no idea why. It is like a volcanic build up of emotion. However, it completely goes away after the call is made. This is why I schedule my dentists appointments in person every six months- just to avoid that feeling. And they know I will never cancel, because that would require a phone call. Stranegly, once I become familair with the receptionists and workers at a place I no longer feel this anxiety. I guess Eliza and I both have starnger anxiety.


I know it isn't healthy that a simple act like calling the doctor or ordering pizza has the same effect on my nervous system as getting mugged in a dark ally. It also doesn't help that in a fight or flight situation I usually choose flight. I told you I'm a big chicken. I would much rather cower behind my husband than face the bad guys in my brain. But I know their reign must end and I am working on getting in control of my thoughts. I am not sure how I plan on doing this but I know it is possible.


Maybe I must channel the force.


Size matters not. Judge me by my size, do you? Hmmm...and well you should not! For my ally is the Force, and a powerful ally it is. Life creates it, makes it grow. Its energy surrounds us and binds us. Luminous beings are we, not this crude matter! You must feel the Force around you, here; between you, me, the tree, the rock, everywhere!...yes, even between the land and the ship. ~Yoda






10 comments:

MoziEsmé said...

Oh - I hope she's okay!

And I know all about the phone anxiety thing. No rational explanation for it in my case - I just HATE the phone. I will drive across town to do things in person rather than pick up the phone.

Christy said...

I have phone anxiety too. I have talked about several times on my blog. But since having kids, my anxiety has significantly decreased. But a few years ago, I could have written this exact post.

H.E.Eigler said...

It's teething don't panic. I've had Hannah at the Dr. a million times because she rubbed her ears and it's been teething. It also makes Hannah feel hot around the face (flushed cheeks) but her temp comes out ok.

Do you belong to a parenting forum? I'm on Pregnancy.org - they have great groups for babies born in the same month as your little one and it makes a HUGE difference. If something is freaking me out (she wasn't babbling AT all for a long while) I'd jump on there and ask my girls - having support from other moms makes things feel way less monumental.

oh, I hate the phone too - I never answer it...make people leave me a message, which I don't return ;)

rose said...

I'm the same way..major anxiety with the phone. I can't order food and get nervous having to call drs. Whenever I've had to call the dr for Alessia, I get nervous and near tears. And you know me...I'm such a worrywort when it comes to her, so the anxiety doesn't help. But at least we're not aone in feeling like this!

Marmarbug said...

I hope E is okay!!! And I am LOL at the Yoda quote! I can hear it in my head in his little voice!

Noah and Grace said...

She is so teething! Grace did all of those things too. Even the fever. I panicked every time with her thinking she had ear infections an I was constantly taking her in for them to look at her ears.
I was just like you with grace. It must be a first time parent thing. You will be more laid back the second time. I would even call the after hours number that has you talk to a nurse at the hospital because she was constipated. I laugh about it now.
I have been having a lot of anxiety lately too. I get super panicked if I have to leave the house. I feel bad for you.

I hope you guys have a great vacation! Take lots of pics for us!

CC said...

I hope she's not sick! I hate the phone too :(

Momma On The Go said...

Poor Eliza and you too of course! Any idea on how the temporal lobe (may have really screwed up the spelling there) thermometers work? Maybe that would help. I'm no doc but what you described sounds like Madison before some new chompers appeared. Either way it is no fun!

Amber said...

Eliza is thriving!! I used to have phone anxiety, but my hubby has MADE me make so many phone calls that I'm over it now.

Anna said...

I have phone anxiety too. It used to be a lot worse, but then I got a secretary type job. I still would prefer to talk to people in person, but I do a lot more things over the phone now.

I hope Eliza is doing better!