Monday, March 23, 2009

Taking a Beating

I am quickly learning that this pregnancy will not be nearly as easy as E's. Having a bouncing toddler to keep track of is kicking my butt or more accurately my belly. I didn't realize my belly wold be getting bumped, kicked and pushed quite so much. As much as I try to avoid this it seems unavoidable. When the doctor asks me about domestic abuse I always want to ask if getting my arse kicked by a toddler counts. Frankly, it is totally freaking me out.

On Saturday I was playing with Eliza at the playground. She was being a daredevil and decided to walk down the slide. I was standing on the ground next to her and reminding her to sit. When I saw she wasn't going to sit, but was instead going to tumble down the slide head first, I thrust myself forward to grab her, catching her just in time and jamming my belly into the play set. It hurt and I was very upset. My husband and mom told me to just relax. It felt better shortly afterward and I was able to relax a bit.

On Sunday I started to get scared that something terrible had happened. I wasn't spotting or cramping or feeling out of sorts at all. However, my head was convincing me that I hurt the baby. My head is a powerful thing. It can make me VERY crazy. It can make my husband very, very crazy. When E's nap time rolled around at about 1 I had totally lost it and was a mess. I ended up calling the doctor to leave a message. I was then able to compose myself and move on with the day. Of course I missed the doctor's call today am they have not called me back again. FUN!

I have mentioned before that I rented a Doppler while pregnant with Eliza. I did not feel her move that much and I was constantly panicking. I would become a zombie just sitting in a daze trying to feel her move. It wasn't healthy. Finally, the doctor suggested I get a Doppler. I was far enough along that I could easily find the heartbeat. So, I rented one from BellyBeats and used it a few times. Having it made me feel better and after using it those few times, E was big enough that I felt her move often.

I was hoping to get though this pregnancy in a more relaxed state. I figured I would be too busy with Eliza to worry and I have been doing much better so far. But lately all this bumping and jostling is making me a nervous wreck. I didn't plan on renting a Doppler but my husband thinks I should for peace of mind.-his peace of mind maybe. :)

8 comments:

Future Mom (Heather) said...

if you think it will help you relax during the day & sleep at night, then get it. a little money out of your pocket now is worth the piece of mind that you can keep track of what the little guy or girl is up to in there..stressing out for the next 5 months isn't going to be good for you, pete, eliza or the baby :)

Lori said...

if getting a doppler provides you with peace of mind I say do it. taking care of one while pregnant with another is tough... it is a juggling act on so many levels. just remember that your body is created to protect your itty bitty. Sometimes we have to step back and relax... I know easier said than done

Pam said...

if it will help you relax, then it is well worth it! our bodies are designed to protect those growing wonders in our belly, but I know it is so easy to 'freak' out too. So go get that doppler if it will help you relax- I wish I would have done that during my pregnancies!

Marni's Organized Mess said...

Just letting you know I am thinking of you and that my mind does the same stuff.

BTW, I bought a doppler cheap on eBay back with my 1st.

Christy said...

I fell down my basement steps when I was pregnant with Izzy. I worried myself silly too.

If it will help ease your mind, rent the Doppler. There is no sense in sitting around fretting all day.

La Mama Naturale' said...

I agree with everyone else! Don't worry :) I'm sure it'll all be fine. I know it's hard to do especially when you can't see what's going on but as they said you're body was made to protect itself-especially during pregnancy. Hang in there! ((hugs))

MarvelousMOM said...

I'm sure everything is fine but know you need the reassurance. I would get that way too when I had a six year old and three year old that always happened to jar the belly.

Heather @ Not a DIY Life said...

I rented a doppler when I was pregnant with Ladybug. After losing our first to a cord accident at 36 weeks, I was a worried, anxious mess with Ladybug. It was worth the peace of mind that I got. I carried it in my purse so I could stop several times during my day to make sure she was okay.